yamanai ame da neeee

Saturday, May 31, 2008

i am officially a student of nus.
that freaks me out very much.

12:36 PM

Thursday, May 29, 2008

there's this person at work who is irritating the hell out of me.
omg she treats me like a doll keep saying im very DELICATE.
OMG OMFG. delicate. delicate.
nobody has ever said that in my entire life.
maybe i should treat it like a compliment.

omg. just cause i like kat-tun she says i'm on dream land.
ahahhahahahaha. HAHAHA.
and i was like 'ha ha so funny' in reply.
OMG she pisses me off so early in the morning.

9:44 AM

exciting days. 11 days to japan
Sunday, May 25, 2008

friday:
dinner with tamp temps. hahah ok anw.
it was kinda funny cause the table was too long, didn't get to talk to the people at the end. but aiyah ok la. i guess. the entire affair ended early. which was sad. anw i had fun with the stupid fellas. hahah.. hope they had some fun too.

saturday:
went down with winnie to the tour agency.
and after tt went shopping. GUESS WHAT
i found a pullover from topshop.
it is super cheap for a topshop thing. omg. good deal.
YAY. its gray very very comfortable and has funny little stars on it! :))))))

anw, i was just reading my friend's blog.
and i saw person A's name.
and i'm thinking whether this person A felt the same way as i felt.
haha. everytime i see person A's name, i wld think of our opportunities lost by my leaving of the company. it would have been nice to have a 'not come and go' friend from work i guess.
but it all ended too soon.

12:55 PM

Friday, May 23, 2008

omg im crazy abt buying a pullover!!!!
that day i saw one, so nice and pretty and everything.
but. NO SIZE.

so, i had a dream ytd.
i saw a pullover that looked too small, then winnie (yes winnie are you honoured you were the one shopping with me in the dream haha) said, just try it la!!! so i tried it and WALLA it fits! omg it looked so NICEEEEEEEEEE it was brown and comfy. and then suddenly, the next moment i looked down, a zip appeared on it.
aye i was so saddened.

OMG winnie its 14 days more to japan.
FOURTEEN DAYS LEH. 14 leh. thats like 2 weeks.
TWO WEEKS LEH. hahahahahahahahahahaha.
i think the dream was a vision of our time in japan where all the clothes will magically fit cause japan is just too cool HAHAHAHA.
and we will see yamapi aiba massu and KAME KUN :D
ah i can't type a slobbering smiley if not i would. hehe.

matong's in japan already that lucky girlllllll.
and she's damn funny. ok yah. hahaha matong buy me smth nice ok.
i will buy you smth nice from there too.

Liz is in LA.
OMGGG that lucky girl also!!! she said she took many Wicked photos for me :)
and and and, i just realise, she was there on the day of AI finals!
wonder if she saw anything.
hahah i still can't believe cook cried when he won.
the amanda overaged cam back!! OMG she cant sing. hahaha
even her voice is so OLD pls! its not a normal person's voice.
its wrong.

has everyone heard of the boy who cried wolf?
you don't even have to lie to make people doubt you,
you just have to exaggerate too often.
anw that time i was talking to matong, until 5.
and she said smth that struck me...
that we're all moving at the same pace but no one's saying anything about it.
are we really moving at the same pace?
seems to me like we're not.
we're not just moving at a different pace,
we're pacing on different grounds...

anw i finished Life of Pi
OMG ITS SO GOOD. PLS someone borrow the book from me.
i feel like i need to share the loveeeee.
i think i need to start acting like him, which is so impossible.
but its worth trying.

i don't know yet how sad i am that half of 33a clique is going overseas, it has yet to impact me at all. (ok cause they haven't left) but i'm beginning to feel very sad about it. like ARGH i'm gna lose a part of my life. and laopo is the first one going over. omg. and delia and shuduan are bunking tgt. i'm gna write to them very often, and hope that we stay in touch this way. ah :(
WHAT AM I TO DO?! nooooooooooo...

ah this is a blog post with a weird mix of emotions.

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11:14am:
OMG THE PERSON FROM TOUR AGENCY JUST CALLED
THERE'S NO SIT ON THE PLANE SO WE'RE GOING ON DAY EARLIER LIKE WTS THIS IS TOO EXCITING TO BE TRUE OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.
so, its 13 days.

9:45 AM

Thursday, May 22, 2008

work's been really boring.
ytd i met delia for dinner!
and hahahaha she took alcohol by accident so stupid and funny.
anw ya caught up and laughed over some people.
fun fun funnnnnnnnnnnn.

i can't wait for tml to come.
tml will be friday.
which mean that this week is ending.
which means that my pay is coming.
which means that japan is nearing.

which means that liting is a very happy person.

10:27 AM

Monday, May 19, 2008

many times we contridict ourselves without knowing it.
its like, if it applies to us then its ok but if it puts us at a disadvantage then its not fine anymore. i don't think there's any way of remedying this.

maybe the only way is not to hold any principles.
or just not tell anyone about them.
not share about yourself.
not let a soul in.

i felt very disappointed when disgust was expressed about my own choices regarding my path,
especially when the spirit of going off the beaten path seem to linger in her all the time.
it seemed to me like she felt it was ok for her to be unconventional but it wasn't ok for me to be so.
its not smth i would expect and i guess it changed my view of her.
but then agn, like i said. its unescapable.
i feel like i cannot blame her. but i can't help but feel sad about it.
ahh omg how can i judge someone based on one thing she did?
i shouldn't. be its so argh. i cant help it.
she just went against everything she has been rallying for.
without herself knowing it.
it's just not right.
.
.
.
.
.
.
gokusen is making me cry.

12:04 AM

Saturday, May 17, 2008

ITS CONFIRMED.
we've booked it.
i just spent 700 bucks but do i look like i care?
NO!
cause
I'M GOING TO JAPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(yes i know this is my 2nd time saying it, but its worth the repetition)
this is the biggest dream that has came true in my life so far.
OMEDETO~!!! :)

aside from this, i just brought Life Of Pi.
i'm going to be buying alot of books this month mann cause of the 20% off.
anw, its seriously a good book. i've read it twice before and i still think its worth buying.
actually, its BECAUSE i've read it twice before tt i'm buying it.

'I have a story that would make you believe in God'

it just gives me goosebumps. even on the third time.
everyone should read it, regardless of whether you are religious or not..
i guess some people can finish the book thinking its blasphemous... but i don't see how they can't understand the meaning behind pi's actions.
its so beautiful. haha. its good. its really good.
go read it!

(i think i have this illness of habitually picking quotes from the book and reading them over and over again. its a lit student thing. HAHA)

I'm so hungry now.
winnie and i smartly missed lunch for the nus talks.
anw, after the talks i guess i decided i shall go for fass.
there are other stuff there, other then psych, that are pretty interesting! which is good cause i'm mortified at the prospect of ending up in geography after having been rejected by all the majors i want. ah typing it out makes me rethink my decision to go to fass. again.
oh my. God help me.

6:50 PM

did i tell you!!
Thursday, May 15, 2008

some exciting things are happening to me.
I'M GOING TO JAPAN ON 5TH JUNE!

i tell you i can't believe this is happening to me.
serious.

8:42 PM

so, ytd, winnie bethia and i took a little trip to chinatown to search for tour agencies and guess what,
everything was closed by the time we got there.
which was 8. like hello why are you closing at 8?!
people who end work late cannot go on tour is it!
oh well. anw after that we walked to starbucks and sat there.
while winnie and i got high over japan, bethia sat there and just became more and more tired.
haha.. it was like an exchange of energy. suck from her and put into us. im tired. ok and im talking rubbish alr.

anws i just found the website with the whole of yamapi's jweb (blog)
and i spend my entire day at work finishing it. HAHA. yup. i'm this free.
and i got myself an LJ acc so that i can go join all those communities.
so fun so fun!

so. i was slightly late for work today.
why?
cause on my way out of the house, i saw the puny ntu letter(as compared to nus) and i realise, i got into linguistics. omg. after that disastrous interview, i actually got accepted.
i wonder if dodo got it. hahaha.. ya. ok so i decided work's not so impt anymore. and so i put down my stuff and sat down to think awhile. ah, it didnt help at all.
now i'm still cracking my head. i really don't know.

oh ytd, i ran into renhui.
oh myy i was so shocked (akira SHOCKED) i exclaimed so loudly.
the entire bus stop of people turned around and stared at me like i was a freak.
and ah i felt like one. anw haha it was a nice surprise.
her friend was greatly amused by my reaction.

4:24 PM

Monday, May 12, 2008

i'm sick.AHHH...
again.

doctor says im down with infuenza.. haha and ytd the meds he gave me cause me ANOTHER drug allergy. i don't know why at all.. is it possible that things like that will happen when i eat too many meds at once? cause when i ate them all seperately, nothing happened!!!!!!
ok but this time its a slight reaction... went down in one day. omg damn scary...
i think i need to go see a specialist about this.

anws. fever has finally subsided after 2 days. yay.
and and exciting thing is, i lost 3kg. hahahhahahaha...
i guess there is always a silver lining behind a dark cloud :D

i feel like i'm wasting a day sitting at home man!!!!!!!!
i should be either
a. going to sn for lunch,
b. going back to tp to meet cpf ppl,
c. going to see buddy, or
d. going cycling
but i know i will regret like mad if i go out today cause i will faint halfway on the streets.
haha and anw i don't wanna pass the virus to everyone else.
and i obviously can't go and cycle.

nvm i will sit and home and lose more weight before i regain my wretched apetite.

10:52 AM

Thursday, May 08, 2008

i miss cpf peopleeeeeeee
i wanna go back for lunchhhhhhh
i miss stnicks
and innova. and i wanna see buddy.

1:48 PM

IM BLOODY PISSED OFF.
Sunday, May 04, 2008

so, today is just the most relaxing day.
hahah i spend the whole day at home today. how nice.
my mum's on her 24 hour shift cause of that dumb MSK and my dad ends late today.
i made my own breakfast lunch and dinner.
my mum called thrice today and all three conversations ended with me getting scolded cause i got annoyed that she kept calling to ask me what i'm eating what i've done what im doing.
felt like telling her to shut up.
where got people keep telling other people 'i'm going to fall into depression soon, my colleagues tell me the family members need to communicate with me to make me feel better! what lousy children i have for not communicating with me. not like my colleagues children' blah blah blah.

FOR GOODNESS SAKE get a life.
your colleagues your colleagues your stupid colleagues.
your colleagues can freaking do what they like with they're children.
fact is, this is how you raised me and this is how they raised THEY'RE children.
STOP BLOODY COMPARINGGGGGGGGGG. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i feel like telling her, you wanna communicate then maybe you should start by listening.
and perhaps tried encouraging us to talk to you when we were younger and not ignore everything we say and forgetting everything we've ever told you then accusing us of not saying it.
perhaps you should blame yourself for making me grow up thinking that you guys aren't really interested in listening to what i've been thru in the day.

don't raise me one way and expect me to turn out different. ARGHHHH.
hypocrites. grown up are all hypocrites.
it makes me cringe to think i'll grow up to become just like them.

i think subconsciously she's just hoping she's really having depression so thats what she keeps telling everyone. she's refusing to go see a gynea or smth abt her menopause even tho she's getting hot flashes and she's abt as predictable as a dinosaur. ARGHHGHH. she's clearly going thru menopause can't she bloody see. no of course not. FFFFFFFFFFFF.

i feel like cursing and swearing.
stop calling home so many times IM ALMOST 20!
i can now drive drink smoke have sex and get pregnant without your consent.
and so far i've done none so can you give me more credit and stop calling to see if i've killed myself in a fire while cooking or let a damn stranger into my freaking house. ARGHHHH.
im laughing while im typing this cause its just damn ridiculous.
DAMN RIDICULOUS. argh and thats an understatement.

and im suddenly remembering how much i hated writing essays.

9:03 PM

Saturday, May 03, 2008

this is what the retarded office looks like. stupid transparent barriers. haha

my best cpf complain buddy! aww. anw i kissed that green dirty pass gdbye. and the headset.

hahaha my ugly notes.can you see the sudou book peeking out from behind. haha!
last day of work ytd.
hahaha those idiots gave me some kiddy stationary and a really really pretty notebook for school next time. i love those guys la. i'm really gna miss them now that i don't get to see them anymore.. and i have no idea how we're gna stay in touch when i'll be working everyday. :(
this is too sad. SO SAD. where to find such funky colleagues...
i was so touched hahaa when they gave me the present i was tearing HAHA but they didn't know.
how embarassing. ok yah.
tho none of them will be reading this, but have fun with crazy screaming members ok.
and white indians. hahahahahahah.. ok ok. no i'm not racist.

my table. shit messy. and you can see terence looking very bored behind. hahah
goodness. i will miss this place.

anyway, so the linguistics dept sent me an email with my essay question.
OMG its gp all over again!!!!! and the question is about singlish like huh. how leh.
does singlish have grammar? naturally right, since its derived from english.

anyway on yanni's request, i shall put up a picture of old woman aka ugly rogue look alike.

I think she should be called Amanda Overaged. eew.
HOW can this be a face of someone who is 23?! my mother looks younger then her.
and its not even a compliment. EEW. hahahahahaha...
and what fashionable feelers she sports.

oh eh i cant catch mewtwo. damn annoying.
and i used my masterball on abra. so i got no more masterball!
ARTGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHGHGVNG.
any tips on catching mewtwo.

1:21 PM

Thursday, May 01, 2008

yanhong/ hometown glory says:
whos the rocker woman
[raMEN]- HIGH ON MAYDAY! says:
i dont know her name
yanhong/ hometown glory says:
the tattoo girl?
[raMEN]- HIGH ON MAYDAY! says:
the one who we said looks really old
[raMEN]- HIGH ON MAYDAY! says:
yah yah
[raMEN]- HIGH ON MAYDAY! says:
the tattoo one
yanhong/ hometown glory says:
OMG she's nit the old woman!! she;s carly!!!
yanhong/ hometown glory says:
hahahahahahaahahhaha
[raMEN]- HIGH ON MAYDAY! says:
OH
yanhong/ hometown glory says:
old woman was the first out of top 12
[raMEN]- HIGH ON MAYDAY! says:
OOPS
[raMEN]- HIGH ON MAYDAY! says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
[raMEN]- HIGH ON MAYDAY! says:
Hahahahahaha
[raMEN]- HIGH ON MAYDAY! says:
she looked like old women!!!
[raMEN]- HIGH ON MAYDAY! says:
ok but i was thinking she must have had an make over casue she was looking less old

HAHAHA sorry im just greatly amused by our conversation.
yanni actually how old is the old woman. not old one right!
hahah i rmb us having a good laugh back then at how awful she looks.

edit:

yanhong/ hometown glory says:
OMF CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT CARLY IS ACTUALLY OLDER THAN THE OLD WOMAN
yanhong/ hometown glory says:
OLD WOMAN IS 23!!!
yanhong/ hometown glory says:
SHE'S LIKE 50

3:09 PM

can everyone just message me and tell me abt how they're uni applications have been going? and how life has been going. since the last time i've been part of it. haha i really want to keep up to date but i don't know why, it just seems an impossible task when its so quiet at the other end. yeah and i admit i've probably become someone who wont be missed, haha by my own doing. dunno la. the conncection just seems so weak, even aft. i feel like its all in the surface, all face talk, all rubbish. rubbish that i will say to people i have met for 2 weeks. this is not what i want.. seriously its not. yah please tell me, i wanna know. PLEASE TELL. THANKS.

anw ya i've been accepted into fass. and monday i got a lms interview.
shit should i go?

1:13 PM